This year too shall pass.....

I find that this year has seen me grow and become a better version of myself. It's something that I hope to be able to say each year no matter what comes my way, good or bad. Because whatever it is, it too shall pass. Just take every moment in and truly allow yourself to FEEL it, because it will pass. What follows will be something greater to come, whether it be positive or negative. Each moment is a preparation for the next, if you allow yourself to see it as such. Allow personal growth and be yourself. That simple. Personal lessons I've learned of recently, to be more self forgiving, patient, and be more free of judgement.

The fact that me and D have been together seven months still catches me in awe every once in a while. The fact that we're even together! Day by day, that's what I gotta remind myself when I let myself think too much. A work in progress, to ever be finished? Who knows, but I know I'll be alright no matter what happens.

I am a christian and a taoist. This is the only place I will say this unless asked. Why? A professional shouldn't have to say that they are professional. This goes with everything in life. Actions should always speak much louder than any words you have to say. Thus, I find that those who speak the loudest about their beliefs, often live contradictory in their actions. I will leave it at this, avoiding going off on a tangent. You are given time, talent, and treasures while you are hear to live. What will you do with all that is given? That is all that matters. Along with appreciating everything you do have. Yep, that's all I'll say here, because I feel a tangent coming.......

One more thing, I'm excited about what is to come for me as far as volunteering now. I struggled for a bit as to whether I should continue with music therapy. Was it something that I wanted to do or something I felt obligated to do? Truth is part of me has always had a save the world complex. I realized the people pleaser in me did things for other people and for approval. Was that the reasoning behind me wanting to go into music therapy? What a personal conflict! GRRRRR! But I realized that music is where it's at for me. I can't think of anything else I would do otherwise. Where will music take me? I can struggle with it, but that desire to help in some way won't go away. And if it does become therapeutic for me in some way, that's OK too....It's not selfish as I thought. It simply becomes beneficial for all involved. Achieving a beneficial life through a musical experience. Chris, at the CCTA, said how she got a 12 year old quadriplegic to smile for the first time in his life. It made his mother cry. That's what inspires me. More to come!

That's all I got.